Family

As I sit here and look at this picture, so many emotions are running through my heart and my mind. This picture was taken Feb of 2005, we are already missing 9 people. Holy mother of pearl. Can you say crazy!!

Each one of the people in this picture(and those missing)hold a very special place in my heart. They have all been there for me in times of need. It brings me such comfort knowing that i will be with them FOREVER. 

As i have gotten older and *haha* "wiser" i have come to realize that family will be the ones that are always there. Much like the seasons we go through, friends will come and go but family will be there no matter what! My family has gone through weddings, deaths, births, drug addiction, serious illness and most recently evil camp hosts!! All times i hold close to my heart and treasure-even the evil camp hosts at Bryce Canyon. 

Love you family and thank you for standing by me. "We may not have it all together, but together we have it all!

For the love of hair

      Yeah this post is about me and my obsession for my hair its color and they way its cut. 

              Can you say Red light?

        I get HBO do you?

Lovin it!

So I am obsessed with coloring and cutting my hair. I have a hair appointment with my wonderful hair dresser Tami every 3 months. She has a little card that she keeps all my info on such as the colors we put in my hair, how many inches we chop off and things like that. 

That little card is filled on the back and front and now we are on a new card. I never do the same thing twice. NEVER. When this obsession first began, i just had an inch cut off and had blonde added. 3 months later chopped off the new growth and and another inch. Added red-lots of red! YIKES. The Boy told me it was so red we could play red light green light with my hair. Thanks, love you to boy.

3 months later didn't want so much red. Added more blonde, but it still looked red. Just did a trim this time.  I know shocker, but i liked the length of it.

Fast forward to 2 weeks ago. Added lots of blonde and a rich brown. cut off new growth plus an inch and did a slight A line in the back. This is my favorite hair cut and color EVER!! I have gotten so many compliments on this hair do. Even master hair dresser Tami said she loves this length on me. 

I think that The Boy doesn't know when to shut up sometimes. He saw me the Monday after i did the new do and he told me i kind of looked like a boy. What the crap?  I think that he looked like pooh that day. I told him that he laughed i laughed and we were ok. 

Will this love for cutting and coloring my hair stop? Nope and im okay with that thank you very much.

THE BOY.

The Boy.  It will be a year next month that he and have been on and off again dating. Why is that when he is ready for a relationship I am not and when i am ready he is not? Im not sure how much more of the up and down relationship thing with him i can take. 

Do i care for the boy? You ask. Why yes, yes i do. I care for him very much. Not sure if these feelings i have for him are love, but it is a very deep caring thats for sure. He is so kind and caring oh and lets not forget handsome. 

The boy has been gone for almost 2 weeks. He went home  to visit some of his family. I didn't think that i would miss him, but oh geesh i have sure missed him. I miss not seeing him everyday at work, i miss not hearing his goofy laugh and seeing the "Roger Rabbit" smile he gives me. 

He called me yesterday and we talked for about an hour (if you know me, you know i hate the phone). We talked about how life was going, what we had been up too. Just life in general. I have been struggling with somethings lately and the boy has been there for me. He has given me some great advice. He gives me an honest opinion on things, he gives me a guys point of view- which by the way is so screwed up sometimes! 

The boy has the greatest blue eyes, that i just love to stare at. This boy has the deepest voice for a 23 year old. When i hear this voice it gives me butterflies. The boy gives the best hugs. This boy was my first kiss. Yes i know you are thinking wow Ash you are almost 22 and he was your first kiss? Yep i know lame, but 'tis true.  This boy is so GREAT with little kids.  My family loves this boy! Which makes it that much harder. 

Is it a bad thing that i can see myself spending the rest of my life with this boy; when i don't know how he feels? The other question i ask is, should i tell him how i feel or just let my feelings stay at bay for now? The other thing that crosses my mind alot, is what if i tell him and it gets weird and ruin the amazing friendship that we have built? AH sometimes i just want to tell him hello I am here and i like you alot!!

Although, my feelings are somewhat scattered there is one thing i do know. The boy will be back today!!! After almost 2 weeks of just texting and a few phone calls , i get to pick him up from the airport and drive him to home.  I hoping for a kiss on the cheek. If i get a kiss i won't charge him gas money. No kiss?  Well then he is so paying me! 

Trip to Macaroni Grill

Last night as the men in my family went to the priesthood session of General Conference the woman went to dinner. I went with my mom, my grandma, my aunt Kelly and the 3 rug rats; Madi, Masen, and Peyton. My moms bestfriend Joan, Joan's mom Jane and Joan's daughter Jenny came along too. 

We had decided earlier yesterday that we wanted to go The Macaroni Grill. Well we got to the Macaroni Grill around 6:30ish. We went in and the wait time we were given for our large party was 65-75 minutes. Yes over an hour. Not all that surprising on a Saturday night. We decided to wait. The time flew by, I talked to Jenny the whole time we waited. Jenny is the cutest girl. 

The time finally came for us to have a table. Masen was holding the pager thing and was so excited when it went off. He jumped up and down and said to my mom, "aunt Toni, its finally our turn yes!! Hurry lets go, come on." 

We sat at our table and the waitress informed us that it was there 20 year anniversary this month and that they would be giving away free meal for 2 tables. Our table was table 21, now mind you we had just sat down and ordered our drinks. The time came for them to give away the free meals. Everyone started clapping and the chef came out and took a bow. He thanked us all for coming and supporting the Macaroni Grill for 20 years yada yada yada. He then pulled out the first table number to win the free meal. TABLE 43. Dang not us. The next table to win is....TABLE 21. Table 21, wait that is us!! YAY!!!  Lots of clapping and cheering at our table. 

Now when i say free meal, you are probably thinking like 2 meals per table right? WRONG! EVERYONE at our table got the following FREE: drinks, meals(including salad) and desert. Oh and Jenny and Madi got Speciality drinks. They brought the bill just so we could see what we needed to tip. The bill came to 200+ dollars. We paid nothing. We did leave a nice tip, but ill tip alot if my meal is free!!

Thanks Macaroni Grill, you are my new favorite over Olive Garden.