Cold Stone Love

This is a tale of Ice Cream, texting, meeting, talking and then nothing. You should be excited.

So i have an account on ldsmingle.com yes it is an LDS dating service online. I hadn't checked said account for oh about a month. Late one January evening i got an e-mail saying i had a message and flirt from some guy named geek in the pink. So i went to my account and checked it out. This guy was cute and seemed nice. So i sent a flirt and message back. Well with an hour i had another message from him. So of course i messaged him back. This went on until Sunday evening when he gave me his phone number. He said my phone number is blah blah blah feel free to text me if you want. 

Guess what? I did it, i texted him, that night! We texted back and forth from like 6:30 to like 11:00, keep in mind my bedtime is like 10:15 because i go to work at the butt crack of dawn. He was so nice, so nice. So Monday comes and he texted me. He said hi hope you have a good day. So we kept talking that day. Well he wanted to hang out that night but i had hair cut, you all know about my hair cutting fetish. I had to go! So i said i'm sorry i have had this appointment for like 2 weeks, maybe another night? He said for sure. 

We keep talking and texting. So here comes the Cold Stone part. He owns/manages the Cold Stone in Draper. My mom went and got ice cream just to check him out for me. How nice is that? Looking out for me! So that same night i had gone to dinner with a friend. She convinced me to go see him, meet him face to face. We drove there, sat in the car for like 45 minutes spying on him. Keep in mind durning that 45 minutes i was texting him. So i finally got up the courage to go in! AHH!  I was so flipping nervous. We waited in line(they were busy) finally got to the front and i said hi how are you? Yadda yadda yadda. We talked for maybe a minute then i was like well i'll go you are super busy. I didn't even order anything. Haha, looking back i now feel stupid. Oh well. 

Next night (saturday) i was at a movie with a friend. He had been talking to me that day but hadn't mentioned the previous night. While i was in the movie he text me and said, you know you should have hung around last night. It would have been fun to talk. So i got all excited and i was like ya! okay it was alright that i went and saw him. 

Things were great for the next 2 days. Then he didn't text or anything for 2 days. I had said hello and got no response. I was sad. He finally then texted me and said im sorry i have been sick and not wanted to talk. I was like ok understandable. We talked the next day, things were fine for about 3 days. 

Here comes the dumb part! My ward was going to the Draper temple open house. We had lots of extra tickets. I had been texting him and texting my friend Lindsey. I meant to text Lindsey and ask her if she thought it would be lame and creepy if i invited him to go with us. I texted it to him. I felt so dumb and lame. I apologized and said sorry for the awkwardness.  He didn't text me the rest of the night. In fact i have not heard from him since. Nothing. He hasn't answered a text, an e-mail and he deleted his facebook account. 

What the crap am i doing wrong here folks? Really? I know that i am not the prettiest flower in the bunch. I know i can be grumpy and crazy. But, really what am i doing wrong? He didn't even say he didn't want to talk to me anymore, he just doesn't say anything to me period. 

This might sound lame and cheesy but i kind of started to like him. Something felt right and good when i talked to him. I am kind of over it now. I just wish i know what i did wrong so i can fix it. 

I helped at a friends wedding this weekend. It was fun. I'm not going to lie. I was jealous. Every part of me was jealous. Wishing, hoping that someday i will get to marry someone special. Somebody who loves me for me, someone i can have an eternal family with. Darn ice cream man, i was hoping he could have been it. 

Draper Temple

About a month ago i got to go to the Draper Temple Open house. What an awesome thing! I remember when i was like 8 the Bountiful temple had an open house and my family went. I don't remember a alot of details or anything. So i wasn't sure what to expect when i went this time. 

I went with the young women in my ward. I drove with my friend Celia and her hubby Scott. I sure love them. They give me advice on my "dating" and assure me things will be ok when i do something stupid. Scott had a hard time finding the correct parking lot. We finally found it. We went in and sat down in the gym. I was a little nervous/excited for what i was about to see. We waited for about 30 minutes. Then we went and watched the video of the temple and its purpose. Awesome video!

We then got on the bus to go up to the temple. We just chit chatted and then listened to a nice man tell us some facts about the temple. We couldn't really hear him, i was bummed about that. We drove up and the temple was getting closer and closer and i was getting so excited!

We got to the temple got off the bus and walked through the tents and then BAM we were in the temple. Right when i walked in the door i had this feeling of peace and comfort come over me. I knew that this was holy place. As we walked through the different rooms my friend Scott kind of explained what happened in each. (Our group didn't have any instruction or explanation of anything) We got to the room where the brides get dressed/ ready and it was very pretty. As we went through i looked at all the artwork and it was beautiful. 

We were at our last room....the sealing room. I walked into this room and the feelings that went through me were so amazing. I felt peace, calm, warmth. It was beautiful. My friend Celia then pulled my arm and said Ash, you need to come see this. She took me by the alter where you can see the mirrors. This was amazing. I heard people talk about this before but actually seeing it myself was amazing. I started crying. I realized how blessed i am to be apart of a family that is sealed and is together forever! 

Seeing those mirrors also made me remember that if i have the chance to be married i want to do it in the temple. There is no other place i want to be married. I need to keep myself worthy to go there. I hope i have the opportunity to marry a worthy mate in the temple someday. It is something i want very much. 

My testimony was up lifted by going to the temple. I am grateful for friends who explain the things to me. There are scared things they couldn't tell me and i'm ok with that. I am also grateful for a grandpa who was able to explain somethings to me. 

I am excited for the dedication in a few weeks. It will be awesome.