Cold Stone Love

This is a tale of Ice Cream, texting, meeting, talking and then nothing. You should be excited.

So i have an account on ldsmingle.com yes it is an LDS dating service online. I hadn't checked said account for oh about a month. Late one January evening i got an e-mail saying i had a message and flirt from some guy named geek in the pink. So i went to my account and checked it out. This guy was cute and seemed nice. So i sent a flirt and message back. Well with an hour i had another message from him. So of course i messaged him back. This went on until Sunday evening when he gave me his phone number. He said my phone number is blah blah blah feel free to text me if you want. 

Guess what? I did it, i texted him, that night! We texted back and forth from like 6:30 to like 11:00, keep in mind my bedtime is like 10:15 because i go to work at the butt crack of dawn. He was so nice, so nice. So Monday comes and he texted me. He said hi hope you have a good day. So we kept talking that day. Well he wanted to hang out that night but i had hair cut, you all know about my hair cutting fetish. I had to go! So i said i'm sorry i have had this appointment for like 2 weeks, maybe another night? He said for sure. 

We keep talking and texting. So here comes the Cold Stone part. He owns/manages the Cold Stone in Draper. My mom went and got ice cream just to check him out for me. How nice is that? Looking out for me! So that same night i had gone to dinner with a friend. She convinced me to go see him, meet him face to face. We drove there, sat in the car for like 45 minutes spying on him. Keep in mind durning that 45 minutes i was texting him. So i finally got up the courage to go in! AHH!  I was so flipping nervous. We waited in line(they were busy) finally got to the front and i said hi how are you? Yadda yadda yadda. We talked for maybe a minute then i was like well i'll go you are super busy. I didn't even order anything. Haha, looking back i now feel stupid. Oh well. 

Next night (saturday) i was at a movie with a friend. He had been talking to me that day but hadn't mentioned the previous night. While i was in the movie he text me and said, you know you should have hung around last night. It would have been fun to talk. So i got all excited and i was like ya! okay it was alright that i went and saw him. 

Things were great for the next 2 days. Then he didn't text or anything for 2 days. I had said hello and got no response. I was sad. He finally then texted me and said im sorry i have been sick and not wanted to talk. I was like ok understandable. We talked the next day, things were fine for about 3 days. 

Here comes the dumb part! My ward was going to the Draper temple open house. We had lots of extra tickets. I had been texting him and texting my friend Lindsey. I meant to text Lindsey and ask her if she thought it would be lame and creepy if i invited him to go with us. I texted it to him. I felt so dumb and lame. I apologized and said sorry for the awkwardness.  He didn't text me the rest of the night. In fact i have not heard from him since. Nothing. He hasn't answered a text, an e-mail and he deleted his facebook account. 

What the crap am i doing wrong here folks? Really? I know that i am not the prettiest flower in the bunch. I know i can be grumpy and crazy. But, really what am i doing wrong? He didn't even say he didn't want to talk to me anymore, he just doesn't say anything to me period. 

This might sound lame and cheesy but i kind of started to like him. Something felt right and good when i talked to him. I am kind of over it now. I just wish i know what i did wrong so i can fix it. 

I helped at a friends wedding this weekend. It was fun. I'm not going to lie. I was jealous. Every part of me was jealous. Wishing, hoping that someday i will get to marry someone special. Somebody who loves me for me, someone i can have an eternal family with. Darn ice cream man, i was hoping he could have been it. 

Draper Temple

About a month ago i got to go to the Draper Temple Open house. What an awesome thing! I remember when i was like 8 the Bountiful temple had an open house and my family went. I don't remember a alot of details or anything. So i wasn't sure what to expect when i went this time. 

I went with the young women in my ward. I drove with my friend Celia and her hubby Scott. I sure love them. They give me advice on my "dating" and assure me things will be ok when i do something stupid. Scott had a hard time finding the correct parking lot. We finally found it. We went in and sat down in the gym. I was a little nervous/excited for what i was about to see. We waited for about 30 minutes. Then we went and watched the video of the temple and its purpose. Awesome video!

We then got on the bus to go up to the temple. We just chit chatted and then listened to a nice man tell us some facts about the temple. We couldn't really hear him, i was bummed about that. We drove up and the temple was getting closer and closer and i was getting so excited!

We got to the temple got off the bus and walked through the tents and then BAM we were in the temple. Right when i walked in the door i had this feeling of peace and comfort come over me. I knew that this was holy place. As we walked through the different rooms my friend Scott kind of explained what happened in each. (Our group didn't have any instruction or explanation of anything) We got to the room where the brides get dressed/ ready and it was very pretty. As we went through i looked at all the artwork and it was beautiful. 

We were at our last room....the sealing room. I walked into this room and the feelings that went through me were so amazing. I felt peace, calm, warmth. It was beautiful. My friend Celia then pulled my arm and said Ash, you need to come see this. She took me by the alter where you can see the mirrors. This was amazing. I heard people talk about this before but actually seeing it myself was amazing. I started crying. I realized how blessed i am to be apart of a family that is sealed and is together forever! 

Seeing those mirrors also made me remember that if i have the chance to be married i want to do it in the temple. There is no other place i want to be married. I need to keep myself worthy to go there. I hope i have the opportunity to marry a worthy mate in the temple someday. It is something i want very much. 

My testimony was up lifted by going to the temple. I am grateful for friends who explain the things to me. There are scared things they couldn't tell me and i'm ok with that. I am also grateful for a grandpa who was able to explain somethings to me. 

I am excited for the dedication in a few weeks. It will be awesome.

Wow

So i really suck at blogging. I haven't blogged in over 2 months. I haven't wanted to. My life is pretty much boring. I did do some fun things since the last time i blogged. I'll share with ya. Lets see where oh where to start? Lets start with Thanksgiving. 

This year we went with alot of my Mom's family to California to see my aunt and her family. The main reason was to go hear my cousins homecoming talk. The trip was way way fun. We drove. I'm not a big fan of long trips but this wasn't to bad. We left Wednesday night and stayed at Whiskey Pete's in Primm Nevada. Then we got up finished driving the rest of the way on Thursday. 

The dinner was amazing. My aunt and her family had cooked everything and so when we go there we just headed to the church and ate. We were joined by the missionaries from her branch and the ward mission leader.  That night was way fun. We finished eating and cleaned up and then just hung out at the church for a bit. I dont know if we had all had to much turkey or bubbly, but the laughing wouldn't stop that night. We laughed so hard that my grandma who has narcalepsie ended falling down. Don't worry we made sure she was ok. She was so then i snapped a few photos.

Friday we went back to the church and did a craft. We modge podged wood leters. Some people did JOY some did NOEL. It was super fun. I have crafty family! They all turned out so cute and so different. Then we went to my aunts house and watched Fred Clause. I thought it was kind of dumb. 

Saturday we all went to Trader Joe's (a yummy shopping place) and spent about an hour there. After that our very large group split up. Most the group went to some place kind of like Bondocks and some of us went shopping. I got some killer deals. I got a way cute sweater for 10 bucks from Sears and another shirt/jacket thing for 10. A new pair of shoes for 20. If you know me you know my Jewelry fetish! I went to Icing by Claires....BIG mistake. I got 2 new necklaces, bracelets and earrings. I dont have my ears pierced and they had the best clip ons so i bought like 6 pair. We then met up with everyone and went to dinner at this amazing mexican food place...so tasty!! Then we went and saw Bolt. If you haven't seen this, go see it. It is so cute. 

Sunday we got up and it was super foggy! Scary. We drove to church and all was well. My family did a musical number in the program and it was very nice. The missionaries spoke and then David. It was an ok meting. David didn't talk to much about his mission, which was crappy. The spirit was there though.

Sunday we left and came home. We got home Monday and that was the end of the trip. I had lots of fun and im grateful for the memories made. Here are some of my favorite pictures from the trip.

Although life is going pretty well. I have been feeling a little bit lonely lately. It has never really bothered me that i am singe until recently. Things with "operation Tom" will not be working out. I have been talking to a guy that lives in St. George. He is a friends cousin. I kind of liked this guy but things have come to light that made me realize i want nothing to do with him. I think i knew this a while ago but really enjoyed talking to someone and having some ones attention. I know i'm not old old but all my friends are either married or getting married i feel old. The thought of marriage keeps popping in my head. Will ever get married? Will i ever find that "special someone"? My brother wrote me and wanted to know how the dating scene was and i told him not so well. He wrote me back and he put this quote in my letter, Nephi said i will go and do not sit and stew. Haha how great is that? So now i just wish i could find someone to go on a date with. I sick of feeling lonely and being the odd one out at things because im not married and don't have a date. So if you know of anyone i could go on a date with, someone who is ok with a larger person i.e. myself. Hook a sister up...PLEASE?! There is a song on the radio by Nickelback that i have fallen in love with. I love this song. The words are amazing. 

Gotta Be Somebody- Nickelback 

This time I wonder what it feels like 
To find the one in this life 
The one we all dream of 
But dreams just aren't enough 
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing. 
I'll know it by the feeling. 
The moment when we´re meeting 
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen 
So I`ll be holdin’ my breath 
Right up to the end 
Until that moment when 
I find the one that I'll spend forever with 

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there. 
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares. 
Someone to love with my life in their hands. 
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that. 

`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own 
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone. 
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere. 
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there. 

Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight 
And damn it this feels too right 
It´s just like Déjà Vu 
Me standin’ here with you 
So I´ll be holdin`my breath 
Could this be the end? 
Is it that moment when 
I find the one that I'll spend forever with? 

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there 
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares. 
Someone to love with my life in their hands. 
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that. 

`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own 
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone. 
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere? 
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there. 

You can´t give up! 
When you're Lookin´ for a diamond in the rough 
Because you never know when it shows up 
Make sure you´re holdin` on 
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on 

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there. 
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares. 
Someone to love with my life in their hands. 
There's gotta be somebody for me 
Ohhhhhh. 


Nobody wants to go it on their own 
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone. 
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere? 
There `s gotta be somebody for me out there. 

Nobody wants to be the last one there 
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares. 
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere? 
There's gotta be somebody for me out there. 

Christmas.

Christmas came and went. What an amazing feeling you get around the holidays. I wasn't really feeling that this year until i served some people. I love to give, i love to see the looks on peoples faces when you give them something. Its amazing! For christmas i got the circut expression. Well they were on back order so my clever mom got me real crickets...so that i would have something to open christmas morning. Talk about a shocker. Holy mother i screamed and said wha the hell? It freaked me out. Im so excited to actually get my machine and start using it! The highlight of the day was talking to the Elder. I had been counting down the days for like a month. He sounds so amazing. I love him and im so proud of him. It was so good to hear his voice and know that he is still there. He has done so well out there. He has had 5 baptisms in the time he has been gone. They have 10 people investagating the church right now. 1 has committed to baptism. He had a crappy companion but luckily that kid got transfered the week before christmas. Our home has seen the blessings of a mission and im so grateful to dallin for that! I hope that everyone had an enjoyable christmas. I hope that it was filled with the magic of wonderment of the season. Happy New Year!!

Lesson help

Okay, i need some help. It is my turn to teach in Young Women's in a couple of weeks. the lesson is on marriage standards. If you could share your story of how you met your spouse and share how you prepared yourself to get married and go through the temple i would appreciate it. For some reason i am just struggling preparing for this lesson. I am dork and like making handouts for my lessons. If you have any ideas for a handout, they would be appreciated. The manual gives some handout ideas but they are kind of lame. Thanks in advance for your help. 

Guilty

Guilty!! I just finished listening to Elder Oaks talk on the importance of sacrament meeting. Few things hit super close to home. He mentioned being on time, feeling of the spirit durning the prelude music...hmm. I am not sure when the last time was that i was on time for sacrament meeting, i am thinking like a month. He also mentioned the proper dress for the meeting. Well i think for the most part i do a good job with my clothing options. The footwear on the other hand...GUITLY again. Most the time i am late because i am primping and doing my hair and makeup. I already have the outfit picked out, but not the shoes. So alot of the time i will slip on the flip flops. Mind you they aren't like beach flip flops. I have gotten alot better with the shoe thing thanks to Target. 

I am so glad that he mentioned the whole cell phone thing. We had a girl in YW last week who answered her phone in class. She said "oh its my dad, i have to answer it." What? her dad was a bishop and knows what time our church is. Why was he calling her? That bugged me. 

Guess I have some things to work on next Sunday. I think we'll start with being on time. My bad!

Living the life

It's been a while. My bad. Guess I have had "bloggers block".  Life is going great! 

So i know that all of you are dying to know if i have chosen my new bedroom stuff. Well indeed i have.  Thank you for your opinions they were very insightful. Well after a month of going back and forth i have selected option number......2.  I ordered this on Wednesday. Now if i could just find a bedroom sent that i like and is not going to break my pocket book.

I got another hair cut. HAHA shocker i know. Me hair cut?...NEVER. This one is my favorite one yet. Chopped alot off, got a few more layers and actually kept the same colors from before. 

I had a job interview at work for a new position. The position is HR assistant. I honestly hope i get it. Im sick of being in the same dept at work that i have been in since i started. Wish me luck. I should know in  a few weeks. 

Dallin is doing really well. He had his first baptism on Tuesday the Tuesday the 23rd. I guess they had kind of a rough day with her on Monday and Tuesday morning, but all worked out and she was baptized.  So proud of Dallin. He is doing a great job serving our Heavenly Father.

The craft bug has gotten ahold of me this week. I made more scrapbooked letters. I made the letters BOO! for Halloween. I am in love with the paper that is on sale right now. I am going to finish the word FALL tomorrow.  My aunt grabbed me on Sunday and asked me if i would make her 25 cards of any kind and she'll pay me for them. Ya! and excuse to actually make cards. I think this month is card club so actually i just realized i have to make 50 cards by next weekend. Yikes. No pressure.  I'm thinking about custom making the scrapbooked letters. If your interested let me know and we can arrange things. I'll post pictures of the ones i've made.

I started walking again. I forgot how much i love it. It's relaxing and well good for me. I usually do between 2.8 and 3 miles. I pop in the ipod and go. The other day my neighbor Dave saw me out walking and he said "you know its not good for mental patients to walk by themselves." Haha thanks Dave.

My dad turned 50 on Tuesday. Happy Birthday old fart. I think he had a fun day. The fam went fourwheeling all day then came home showered and then we went to Chili's. My dad is a funny fella.  Here are a few things i love about the pops.  He laughs so hard he farts sometimes.  He has infectious laugh. He is a LOUD talker. He is caring and compassionate. He is a jack of all trades. Have a problem with a car? Need a birthday cake? Come on over Poppa Martin will help ya out.  Love ya dad, Happy Birthday

We had a young single adult activity for our region, our stake was in charge of it. I got "nominated" to be the rep from our ward, so i got to help with that. It was super fun. We didn't think we would have alot of people, but we had about 100 people. I got to know girls from the stake better i also got to play football with cute guys- one of them being Op Tom. Ya for that. More on Op Tom in a later post. :)

Here are some random pics from the month of Sept. Have a great weekend everyone!!

Boys that gather money...

Heather came home for a visit.  Ash*Heather*Linds
          Yeah we play twister for YW

Don't ask...

Dave is a Diva while doing service

New bedroom-opinion needed!

So i need your opinion. I have had this itch to redo my bedroom for a while now. Well i got permission from the proper authorities, okay just my mom after all it is her house in which i live. 

Right now my room has been the same since i moved in here when i was 12, and its a little to floral for my liking. Don't get me wrong, i loved it when i was 12 but not so much now. My room is foe painted a dark/medium green then a wallpaper border at the top with probably 12 inches of a lighter green above that. I want to change everything!! I have picked out some bed stuff that i kind of like. Help me narrow it down, which one do you like? 

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I also get to buy myself a new big girl bed. Haha!! Yeah i'm 22 and still sleep on a twin. Depending on which one of these bed covers i get will depend on A. the colors of my room and B. the color of my new bed. I guess that means i'll also be getting a new dresser and night stand and new window coverings. Good-bye lacy frilly crap.

Im so excited!! I also have a bathroom attached to my room. I think i will keep it green and just get a new shower curtain, rugs, towels and toilet seat cover. Oh and some new pictures and wall hangings for both rooms.